total wreck

There’s another side of me, that you probably don’t know. I am a car enthusiast. I love my Beemer and I put a lot of effort and some money in modifying it so I can make it perfectly ME. I also had a lot of fun in driving that little mean ultimate driving machine.

BMW 328 w/ pink bling!

carbon fiber roundels

springs, 19" nrfts, custom pink calipers

clear lights

rear lip spoiler

But if you have read my blog from June 20, then you probably already know that I got involved in an accident and my car is now a total wreck. I don’t even know where to begin. Everyone is asking me how it happened, how I feel, and all I can answer is I don’t really know.

All I can remember is this …

I was driving north bound in one of the major streets in downtown Los Angeles, Monday / Tuesday midnight. Traffic was a bit heavy as expected because of Kid Cuddi at Nokia Theater and Britney Spears at Staples Center.

So I was going with the flow of traffic as everyone drove and stopped. And the light was green so all the cars were moving (bumper to bumper) and so I drove as well. As I was crossing a major intersection I didn’t notice that the car in front of me stopped. And the only thing I remembered was seeing a car way too close and the next thing I knew .. there was smoke inside my car, 3 of my airbags deployed, and as I looked outside my window I saw about a million cars stopped but all ready and positioned to go as if it were a race and all the drivers were waiting for 3 words “Ready, Set, Go”.  I went from a state of panic to a complete shock.

People were screaming at me “are you ok?” and i see blood in my arms, I can’t respond. I look around for my phone, and I can’t find it. My car has shut down as it should .. Strangers rushed to me and they all tried to help me. I hear one person say to me “I moved your front bumper and license plate to the side of the road” and another one tell me that someone else is calling 911. Someone else is trying to talk to me, telling me to drive my car to the side of the road and all I can say is “No, No, I can’t drive .. I don’t want to drive. I need a phone .. I need to call my husband.” Strangers pushed my car because I was as good as paralyzed.

I called my husband from someone else’s phone and the only thing I could say is “I got into an accident and I’m not ok” I put the phone down and just stared blankly as I waited for the paramedics and the police to come.

I couldn’t believe what was happening around me. And at this point, the only thing I needed was my husband to hold my hand and to hug me. I hear my phone buzzing but I couldn’t find it anywhere. I looked around my car and I see airbags around me .. and I see people walking around taking pictures and 2 other cars damaged from the accident that I have caused.

I am alive. Alive but disoriented, in dis-belief, and just lost. Lost in a crowd of paramedics, fire fighters, police men, and spectators. I couldn’t leave my car but the fire men told me I should because one of my side airbags never deployed and I might get hurt in the event that it does. They were asking me a million questions too about meds I take, where I was, what my name is, the date today .. and I couldn’t answer any of it. I just wanted to see my husband and go home to my family. I finally got out of my car and walked to the side walk. As soon as I did, I felt all dizzy and apparently collapsed.

I was taken to the ambulance and I was there when my husband came. I cried when I saw him.

I was moved to another ambulance and we were told that I had to go a trauma hospital and the paramedics took me. I stayed there for 4 hours as they ran tests on me. They found nothing but what was already seen from the start.

These and my sore face and swollen lips due to the impact of the air-bags exploding.

The doctors finally gave me a clearance to leave … to leave the hospital and live my life.

Every night we pray with our kids and think that it doesn’t even matter that we say things over and over again. But God hears every word of it. When my 4 year old asks God to “Please take care of my mommy and make sure she is safe” God made sure that I really was.

As I stay home and lay in my bed to rest for the last 2 days. All I can think of is how God is so good that he gave me another chance to be with my family.

Yes, the bruises are minimal .. It will heal. My car is all wrecked but it can be replaced, but as I remember that one poignant moment in my life when I looked at my front and all I saw was airbags and a broken car, and I looked to my left and all I saw were cars waiting to go .. I think to my self, Thank God I’m alive. Thank God that you took care of me and you really had your angels watching over me. Xoxox!

 

 

 

june 20

June 20 started as what seems to be a hectic day for others, but a very normal day for me

✔   9:30 am – appointment with the CPA

✔   10:00 am – arguing with my brother half-way-around the country during a very important  appointment

✔   12:15 pm – a much needed appointment with my therapist

✔   2:30 pm – waxing appointment

✔   3:00 pm – a quick trip to the bank

✔   3:15 pm – bring the kids to the mall

✔   5:00 pm – get ready for Britney’s Concert

✔  7:00 pm – Britney’s Femme Fatale Tour with my BFF at Staples Center

it's Britney Bitch!

Femme Fatale

So, everything above is exactly how I planned my day. With-out a moment left to pause and think or just a second to breath. But every day for me is just like this .. I plan it like I am on a constant fast forward button. This day was different though, For one I get to spend the evening with one of my BFFs “the bitch” in the pic and I know for sure we are going to have fun doing something we’ve been doing for about 8 years now .. watch Britney Spears live at the Staples Center (to this day, we haven’t missed any of her concerts). And I also didnt expect this part

12:00 am get involve in an accident and total wreck my 328 BMW

2:00 am be in an ambulance courtesy of the LAPD

2:05 am be inside the ER of on of California’s Finest Trauma Hospital with about 15 people screaming and moving so fast around me

5:00 am walk out alive with my husband holding my hand because God is good and he loves me. He sent not only one but a million of his angels to protect me and make sure i’m ok. I love you God and Thank you Jesus!!!

6:00 am lay in my bed and wrap my arms around my beautiful children and have my husband sleep next to me.

I love you, my one true love!

bracing for vegas

I go to Las Vegas about 4-5 times a year. But there are 2 trips out of these that I consider my “Shopping Trips” and it is when I go sometime during Christmas and Memorial Day. My husband knows this and right before we go, he already tells me not to worry because he is ready and well “equipped” for my therapy. This is how the trip usually goes ..

from valet to the hotel room

oops ...

So when I went to Vegas for 4 days and all I came home with only this …

that's it??

Mr. hubby got worried .. really really worried. I didn’t feel like shopping. I was tired, depressed, and busy with the kids. Well, it’s not like the last 100 trips were any different because I was tired and busy with the kids anyway – but I used to use the shopping as a stress reliever and I wasn’t depressed at all.

Mr. hubby told me to shop. He said he wasn’t used to me going home from Vegas empty handed. I wasn’t used to it either. But this trip was different because I really didn’t feel like shopping at all.

But after I came home to LA, something happened. And just like magic I am “kinda” back. I am a lot happier now, and making up for the Vegas trip. And here is a pic to prove it …

i've been busy

It’s been a week since I’ve been happy and this is what I ended up with. Guilt free shopping. YSL Black Patent Tributes w/ Stingray Heels, Tom Ford Sunglasses, Chanel Wallet, Chanel Summer Flap, and these lovely pink studded shoes.

So I ask Mr. Hubby, do you prefer for me to be sad and not shop or happy and not stop shopping? Of course, he answers the latter since he can’t resist me. So I guess it’s time to say that I am officially back to being me.

his, hers, and my love for watches

Panerai Ferrari Granturismo Chronograph

and

Hermes 35 Birkin

rouge garrance birkin and ferrari panerai

FER 0004 (Hermes Black Cat in the back)

Lovely!!!

PS – it’s also my 1st attempt in photographing a watch. Not bad eh?

6 months of sadness

i will never forgot how my phone rang in the middle of the night, some 6 months ago. it was my brother letting me know that my 32 year old sister-in-law who was really more like a sister to me has passed away from a brain aneurism.

you see, my family lives in the east coast. i live here in the west coast with my family, my brother, sister-in-law, and my 9 yr old nephew. we all had this plan of flying to new york for thanksgiving and staying there for a week so we can all be together for the holidays. but little did we know that that holiday will be the most unforgettable, saddest, time of our lives.

it was going to be 8 days of crying, weeks of tears, months of sadness.

and it’s been 6 months and i’m still not used to living life with you sharon. i miss you and i love you. i think about you .. no longer everyday, but i am still devastated. we all are.

life is short .. yours was shorter, sweeter, but every moment spent with you is a moment to treasure.i never even had the chance to say goodbye …

xoxox, sis.

 

some things should never go on sale

i can never resist a good sale. i won’t buy ugly things just because it’s a good deal so i can hoard it, but i wouldn’t mind storing pretty things like betsey johnson baby doll dresses,  designer shoes, and other things that i know i would eventually use.

but there are things that should never ever go on sale. i don’t have much louis vuitton because i don’t fancy it but i do appreciate the fact that it never ever ever goes on sale. all chanel classic purses, all the classic christian louboutin shoes (prive, pigalle, etc), all the classic hermes purses … i don’t mind paying the high price for any of them because not only do they keep their value the prices actually go up some 30% every now and then.

anyway, i’m saying this because today .. as i browsed my morning paper (aka the neiman marcus shoe sale) i stumbled upon this.

WHAAATTTTTT?? i pay some $3300 for a beautiful pair shoes better than cinderella’s glass slippers, and it goes on SALE?

where i’m from, classic, beautiful, timeless pcs never goes on sale. and i was so disappointed. i purchased this knowing that i loved it anyway, but i just didnt know that unlike most of the stuff i have that actually keep it’s value – this one doesnt. that it doesnt matter to mr caovilla if i buy his $3000 shoes or $700 slippers because a few months from now, they will be worth much less than what i paid for. BOOOH!

 

 

 

what now?

So I’ve gone from cold turkey, to moderation, to a full blown shopaholic in just 6 months.

And now … june 2 the day that every self respecting shopaholic knows all the gorgeous shoes and everything else goes on SALE on that little street called wilshire blvd where those boring stores called neiman marcus and saks fifth avenue are quietly situated.

what to do, what to do, when you get emails from the sales reps asking you to come in for a pre-sale.

OMG! I did go over-board and shopped the last 2 months but I had every bit of reason to do it (anniversary, birthday, mother’s day). Now that I no longer have a valid reason to shop .. and I am salivating over the beautiful shoes and bags that will go on sale on thursday (i already browsed on line and know which ones i want) I am so lost.

I want everything .. I already have about 4 pairs of shoes, 2 bags, and 1 wallet and that’s only from 1 store. I also didnt even bother to look at clothes yet. This is purely my wish list though.

No real purchase yet. I am slowwwlllyyyy getting torn. Don’t know which direction I should go.

Auuugghhhh! I want shoes!! Not 1, Not 2, but all of them!